Holding on…

My darling husband,
We have a second memorial service tomorrow for you here in KC. I’m sure you are wriggling about the fact that you will have had two memorial services but you will also understand that you touched so many lives and meant so much to people that it will take two memorial services.
I’m actually [...]

4 years

My Dearest Husband,
It has actually been over 6 years that we met…again. Tomorrow will be our 4 year wedding anniversary. I can’t quite say will have been as nothing is quite true at this moment. I still haven’t taken the moment to have caught my breath as I really don’t want to. Right now I’m trying [...]

My Darling

My Darling Husband,
I write to you for the first time since your death, I suppose to maybe take a moment to make sure that you know it is every second that I think about you even though at this moment I have no idea how I continue.
The first couple of days without you, I knew [...]

One Year Today

My Dearest Lido,
You are one today.
My mind is trying to keep up with this. At this moment a year ago I was in the hospital deciding whether or not to stay or go home and see if you would decide to come in a few days.  We induced because there was nothing, absolutely nothing, [...]

4 weeks to a Year

My Dearest Lido,
This time last year we were counting down the weeks that you would be here.  With a due date of September 9th we didn’t think it would take you another 4 weeks to arrive and when you did arrive…well…I think that you would have liked to stay a few more days.
You have hit [...]

Finger

So Dodo and Lido are at the grocery store and I thought I would get the turkey burgers, frittata and dinner made while they were gone…lots of similar veggies to chop…but since I cut my finger I decided that I would get a blog in and get blood over the keyboard versus over our veggies…it [...]

10 Months

My Dearest Lido,
10 months. 6 teeth. 1 step away from walking. Past the point of no return.
You are a bugger. You definitely know what you want and if we would just follow suit I’m sure things would be just brilliant…however…it is hard for us to go from a dead sleep to up and running at [...]

9 Months

My Dearest,
You are nine months old today.  Lately, I’ve been thinking more and more about the things that I want to teach you – the things that I want to teach you to help you develop into a happy, well-rounded, inquisitive, loving, gracious, easy-going, upstanding, loyal man.  I hope that I never make you feel [...]

Phew…

As far as I know I have survived another round of layoffs at work…I guess I shouldn’t be that surprised since I am on a project that is a ‘go’ in these times…but still…corporations do funny things sometimes.
Anyway – no talk about work.
We recently bought the Wii Active. And it promptly kicked my ass. And [...]

Seedlings

Lido is not 9 months yet….and with this post I will have posted at least twice prior to his 9 month letter….
Good sign.
My little seedlings are doing well. I get a small thrill each day going out and inspecting them and tallking to them. I never knew that a part of the seed is “shed” [...]