Archive for October 2006

Building on a thought from a friend…

31 October, 2006

Even though I love it when people post to my blogs (the two who have)…I opted of not replying to my friend sa rah’s blog only because I had to sign up for another blog site and I didn’t want to do that (sorry girl)…here is what she wrote today and my response to it (or my take on what she wrote about and my thoughts about the whole thing):


 i had two moments today wherein i was presented with the fragility of life. i suppose i’ve been looking for these moments of late. I feel very intensely the falling away of time with my dad, my mom and my brothers. Having a child will do that.

I realize the finitude of my life and times by looking at my baby. I will die someday and I will be a memory to him. He will die someday and all memory of me in this world will die with him. That is the extent of my presence here.

And the same for him. And the same for you.

And we’re lucky. Lucky to have made it far enough to make memories. Lucky enough to have impacted someone else’s memories. Lucky to have taken life for granted and dared the world to steal it from us.

This is trite. But this is what i make of it right now.

– sa rah


My response:

A few summers ago my family had a reunion in western Kansas and we toured the area where my family first settled.  One of the most amazing things that I saw that day was where my great-great-great grandfather and g-g-g-grandmother called “home”.  It was maybe a 5′ x 5′ structure that had a thatched roof and walls made of limestone rocks stacked on top of one another.  Of course all that was left was 2 partial walls that only stood a foot high.  We had to get permission from the current land owners to go down and see what they probably thought was just a pile of rocks – not something that was a home to my family.  With about 50 of my family members standing around this “home”,  my grandfather told us stories of their day to day life, their encounters with Indians, their struggles.  After 100 years their memory was still alive and in essence they were as well. 

I learned a lot about my family that day – 5 generations of family. I also was able to go back to the homestead that my great grandfather built and where my grandfather grew up and to see where my great grandmother raised her children and made a wonderful home.  My last memory of the homestead was when she died when I was a child.  We went back to the house after the burial and I remember playing upstairs and sitting in one of the bedrooms and thinking that this was just the greatest house ever – a bit spooky – but great.  I remember looking at photographs of her, she was so tall and stately looking and had the kindest eyes, and of hearing stories about her. The stories and the pictures have kept her alive all of these years and she will be kept alive through my first daughter as she will share her name and I will pass down the memories I have of my grandfather telling me stories of his mom. 

Life’s finitude is scary especially when we reach any point that says “hey – watch it – you are not going to live forever”.  I have a great fear of not being here but it is waylaid for a few precious moments when I think about this family reunion and how over 100 years of memories have not died with the people we have loved – they have continued because we will always be connected – be it through family or friends – their stories will be shared and in essence they will continue.  I will always remember you and have memories that I will pass to my children (once they reach a certain age…) and my children will then remember you as well as theirs…and we will never be gone from this world, really. 



All you book lovers…

30 October, 2006

This will make you jealous:

This is the largest bookstore West of the Mississippi.  You need a map…will definitely check it out and report back.

Sunday Trip

30 October, 2006

Each Sunday Dodo and I are trying to get out to explore since that is really the only day that neither one of us is doing much…unless he has a flight of course.  This past Sunday he cancelled his flight at 3pm so we could go out and meander around. 

Downtown was our plan.  We live about 10 minutes from downtown Portland which is nice.  It reminds me of our proximity to downtown KC and my hangouts from our house in Waldo.  The 10 minutes is only accurate though if you are driving on a Sunday, no accidents, no games, and there is no one in town to speak to a crowd. 

Downtown here is AWESOME.  It is beautiful, busy but not too busy, big but not too big, cultural, just AWESOME. There are parks that go about 4 or 5 city blocks which was just gorgeous this past Sunday.  The leaves were turning, it was brisk and cool, smelled of fall, and I had my coffee.  Couldn’t be more perfect.  There are also some “concrete” parks – pavilions – where we got to see a couple of girls protesting the war…really wish we had the camera.  There are a ton of stores of course – Nike Town, Columbia, Tiffany’s, Nordstroms, LV, etc.  We didn’t get to China Town – drove by but will definitely check that out next weekend (if it is not raining).  The art museum looks cool.  We parked a block from it and the Egyptian exhibit is coming November which I am really excited about.  We’ll definitely be back for that. 

Now you are probably wondering where the pictures are of this AWESOME downtown.  My husband remembered to take the camera but forgot to put the battery back in….ya…me too….

We still had a great time. I really wish that we could have found somewhere to live down there.  However, I don’t have 3,000 a month to spend on rent or 1.5mm to buy a loft.  Oh well…goals.

Next Sunday we’ll head downtown again and this time I will be in charge of the camera. 


I have an interview today with a IT company that staffs recruiters as well as IT people with different companies.  I am looking forward to it.  It is a project coordinator position within the corporate offices which is a 10 minute drive from our house.  Definitely something that I could do and it pays pretty well which is hard to come by in this town.  I am also working at our complex on Saturdays – interesting.  The nice thing about this is instead of getting paid we get a deduction from our rent.  It is very interesting though working there.  You get to meet your neighbors – some you would like to meet and some your not to sure of but all in all it is a decent gig and it saves us money in rent. 

Oh – and Dodo wanted me to let you know that my description of an autorotation and a quick stop were not accurate.  So I am not going to be posting any explanations of what he is doing – I’ll only be posting what he is doing and if you want the explanation, link to his site (it is under my blogroll – friends & family).

So what is Dodo doing?? Working his tiny ass off.  He flies, he has class, he studies.  He will have his private pilot license by the end of December.  Then it is on to commercial and instrument and then his CFI (certified flight instructor).  After he has that hopefully the school will hire him to be an instructor and if not then he starts applying to other schools and we go from there.  Hopefully though he gets the position at the school. 


Since we have no pictures of downtown…here is one to tide you over….

One year, 29 days and going strong…

Beach Sunday

26 October, 2006

The Beach

We went back to the beach last Sunday as I said in a previous blog and I also promised in said previous blog that I would post more pictures.  It was definitely a brighter day than the weekend before and the waves were much bigger.  There were several surfers out there – I think in my previous blog I stated that I thought that it was pretty silly to surf these waves…but they didn’t have these particular waves the first time we went out.  This is supposedly a great place to surf, as the water comes in it breaks around the rock and makes big waves.  The tide was also much higher than it was the last time we went…we need to get nautical and understand how tides work…

Dodo and the Maggie B enjoying a run. 

I don’t know about you but I am relaxed now…

So – yesterday I told you a little bit about the staffing agencies here and how frustrated I was…well, I have a new perspective. 

I received a phone call from an agency that I had been trying to get into for a couple of weeks.  I had decided that they were very elitist in their way of doing business but sometimes in order to get the good jobs you must go the way of the elite – right?  They finally called me back yesterday morning and wanted me to come in to interview with their temporary staffing side.  I asked them if I could interview with the permanent side because that was really what I was looking for…they said I might once I got there but my background was not what they were looking for in the permanent side.  This is mainly because I did not have a particular title to go with one (insert job here) of my jobs – according to the girl I was speaking with.  I pled my case but she was not convinced and I still made an appointment. 

The rest of the day I was completely depressed because the market out here sucks and I am the type of person that is better in person than on paper.  You must be very creative when looking at my resume…

So – today I went for the interview.  Definitely not looking forward to it.  I filled out their mountain of paperwork, took my tests and then interviewed with the temp girl.  She was thrilled with everything and was genuinely glad I came in.  My background and skills were just what they were looking for AND she wanted me to interview with the permanent side….WHAT???

Basically – I need to remember that I do better in person and I will never get a job based on my resume and I must remember not to waste a day being depressed because I think that nobody likes me and wants to interview me.

Now – they just need to find me a job…please.

Another Week

25 October, 2006

Finding a job here is frustrating.  I am not losing hope just yet but I would like the staffing agencies here to actually work for you not be competing amongst themselves.  This is too long of a story to tell…just know I am frustrated. 

Go to  Tickets are cheap out to Portland right now….hint, hint to all of my friends.

Doug is of course going gun-ho with school.  He has had some really good flights and better ground school.  Auto-rotations come next week…I can’t believe it.  We had a conversation last night about it and during an autorotation the motor is dead but the blades are still turning so it acts as a parachute and you can control the helicopter still.  Pretty crazy.  I asked him if they taught him how to jump out of helicopters just in case…he said no.  I still think it would be a good idea.  Just make sure you are sitting opposite of the tail rotor and jump down not up….

He has to get his fast drops down – this is where he is at 2,000 feet and rapidly decends and then pulls out before he hits the ground.  What fun. 

Here are a couple of pics from this weekend.  I picked him up from school to go out to the beach and go to see him fly a bit. oct23-017.jpg This is him landing. 

 I’ll post some more pics.  I need to get them downloaded to another site first. 

Enjoy your day.


21 October, 2006

Today is going to be a farmer’s market hang out at the house sort of day – possibly.  Tomorrow, a short drive to the coast.  It is supposed to be near 70 and sunny…are you jealous? 

Our new bed – I mean uh our new sofa

19 October, 2006


This is our new sofa.  We love it.  If you put the ottoman (it’s a wedge) against the sofa you have 52+ ways of laying there.  Go out and get yourself one of these.  Everyone else is.