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2 Days…2 More

23 May, 2009

I can’t say I was the happiest person in the entire world when I was told that I was getting a paycut then 2 months later told that I could no longer bill for over 40 hours.  Then I wasn’t too happy about the prospect of not being able to bill over 32 hours every other week.  You see, employees got a paycut and also have a mandatory day off every other week…the work load is still there…for everyone.  I was saved from the last part, however, I’ve been having to work over 40 hrs in order to get some things done and accomplished…so I am not taking part in the every other week off thing…It happened to fall over this weekend which gave me a much deserved 4 day weekend.

The weather has been super fantastic. Yes, I said super and fantastic together….get over it.  When it rains for 9 months…I deserve to be able to use super fantastic as a descriptive.

LiDo and I have been running around and yes, I wanted the house cleaned and organized by this evening…I don’t think I’m going to get there.  Maybe. However, I hung new curtains in his room as well as rearranged a bit.  I did clean up the kitchen – a few times now – and I also got great deals on deck planters and a rose bush…each for $5.  So, I planted my little seedlings and replanted the rose bush with LiDo sitting in his bouncy outside on the deck.  It was really fun to listen to him gabble the afternoon away and just dig in the dirt.

I planted some seeds a bit over a month ago.  I can’t tell you what I planted.  I threw the packages away and didn’t write it down either. I think I like it that way.  I cleaned out the deck planters that I had from last year and just pretty much threw the seeds in each one…didn’t follow much of the directions regarding spacing due to the fact that it was being put into a planter and not the ground…replanted some of the bulbs I had from last year….didn’t know what they were either….and now…I have a nice start to some great flowers and hostas.

Typically I plant flowers that already have some blooms or are about ready to get there.  I must say – it has been so much more enjoyable planting the seeds and wondering if they will sprout, watching them slowly sprout, going out to them every day and getting excited to see them doing something!  I feel such a sense of accomplishment. A sense of newness. A slow anticipation that won’t kill me.

It is kind of strange, this feeling.  I mean, I did incubate a child for 9 months.  So, to feel such joy and anticipation from planting a few seeds…

I’m not sure about any of you but we here in the DoDo household are trying to cut back.  We are doing good at this in several areas…bad in others…and quite honestly, having flowers for our deck this summer did not make the budget list.  However, when I looked at a seed packet for $1…well, I decided I would “try it out”.  One of my main problems with all this cutting back is that quite honestly, I feel like I can’t have any fun or have the pleasure of something that I so enjoyed before (like planting flowers).  I am used to that instant gratification that money buys.

Instant gratification.  Isn’t that so much of what all of our purchases are about?  How many items have you purchased that gave you pleasure the first five minutes (that were not battery operated) and they are now sitting in your garage/basement/yard sale?  My $1 purchase of seeds has ended up bringing me 2 months of satisfaction, joy, pleasure and more than anything else the feeling of excitement for what may come next.

I’m thankful for my $1 seeds and my $5 rose bush.  Both have taught me that I don’t have to have the best or the most perfect.  All I need is something that I can work with, nurture, grow and along with that I have a bit more patience.

All things that help get us through the days.

With that thought in mind, I’m leaving the laundry, kitchen, bathroom to do when I can.  Otherwise, over the next two whole days, I’m nurturing my family and watching us grow together.  Putting some much needed water in the soil so to speak.

Month 8

17 May, 2009

And changing.

My Dearest Lido,

What a world you are opening up to us.  You are and absolutely incredible child – if my opinion counts for anything.  I have been amazed yet again at the ease you seem to have for anything that we throw at you.  A 5 hour car trip that turned into 8 hours but ended up well worth the trip to visit the Redwood Forest with your Nanna B and Yaya.  We stayed in a cabin for 4 days and a Yurt for 1 night and the entire time we were there it rained. We bundled you up – strapped you in your carrier or in the stroller and we were off to be explorers.  The trees were magnificent as they always will be (hopefully) and you were magnificent and looked at everything and were a very happy baby the whole time.  We even drove past the cabin your Daddy and I stayed in a couple of Christmas’ ago…and not long after we found out we were having you.  I decided that I would probably do more harm that good by getting you out of the car seat and taking a picture of you in front of the cabin – so I held back.  I figured I could keep that embarrassing item (for you) off of the “mom’s embarrassing item list that she tells everyone”.  Just don’t go and read this post when you are older….

It was a fun trip ad interesting trip and a hard trip. I’ve never had to travel with 2 small children and have to remember to pack everything and boy – do you have a lot of stuff!  I’m lucky I’m not one of those parents that like a ton of kids crap…the car wouldn’t fit everything!

I was completely amazed at how you looked at everything.  We took a hike through Lady Bird Johnson Grove and you were mainly interested in the O’s you were eating but every once in a while you took it all in.  The main thing you loved was the small aquarium we went to at Crescent City and being able to pet the sharks…although you barely got to because I would have had to dunk you half way in in order to get you down to their level…but we made up for it at the Oregon Aquarium in Newport. You got to touch some star fish and rock things of some kind but we stayed away from the anemones this time…they may not hurt us but for you…it could have left a bit of a welt.  But you were fascinated by all of it and I don’t think you really wanted to move on to the next thing.  You were so great petting the star fish and would stick your litttle fingers in the water and touch it and turn around and look at me with the biggest smile.  I think that the volunteers were turning blue because they thought that you would just poke and grab at them but you didn’t. You were very gentle and very enthralled with the whole thing – It was so surprising to me.  At 8 months.

Your other favorite were the jelly fish and the starfish that was as big as you!  I so hope that you continue the enthusiasm and daringness that you have now (well, maybe not the daringness). I want you to explore and learn and it was so utterly cool that you were really enjoying yourself.

It has been a couple of months since you became “officially mobile”…and you haven’t stopped. You climbed the stairs – not just one step but the entire staircase Saturday morning.  Your Daddy and I figured that if you were going to do it we might as well teach you the right way – you started with the first and on to the second with no problem.  Then you tried the third but then kept looking back not sure if you really wanted to go that much further from ‘home base’ but after a little coaxing and reassurance you managed the rest of the steps beautifully. Now we are just teach you how to go down the steps…I think that will take a bit longer. Your Dad and I have to figure it out first!

Seeing you thinking about taking that next “step” made me start to think about how I want you to always feel, no matter what choice you make, that you have us both on that staircase with you at all times.  I’m sure life will bring you many things – and you will make decisions that I don’t agree with but I want you to always feel that even though I may not agree with your decision, that I will always be there beside you whether you go up a step or whether you must come down a step.  I know the one thing that I appreciated most about my parents (looking back on life of course) was that they always were there to support me or catch me. I think that is one of the greatest gifts a parent can give their child.  All of that along with knowing that even though they not always agreed with my choices – they were my choices to make and no matter what – they would be there.  I hope that life finds you thinking the same thing about us – even though it may take some time to realize.

I was looking at you a few days ago while you were sleeping in my arms and told myself that one day I would wake up and you would be this grown man.  I stared at your face and imagined what you would look like, be like. I wondered how much grief you would give us…and couldn’t imagine such a sweet child giving us any grief at all.

Month 8 has brought you to a world of crawling, standing and attempting to walk, two bottom teeth that are just too adorable and as of a couple of days ago…2 top teeth making their way out.  You once again are growing too fast.

I love you my dearest little boy.

Your Mom

Always.

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